| ...and I've never been to Boston in the fall! |
[Apr. 19th, 2006|09:02 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  bouncy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Relient K - The Pirates Who Don't Do Anything | ] |
Things have been busy at the bakery, enough so that I think I'm going a little bonkers. I've been dreaming about pirates and just dancing to keep myself sane. Keeping everything running smoothly while worry about friends is hard work.
I think I need some time off soon, but then I'll complain I have nothing to do. |
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| Life is peachy... |
[Apr. 2nd, 2006|12:30 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  chipper | ] |
Right, I've been kind of scarce lately, working on incorporating some new ideas into the bakery. My father is basically thinking of taking it over unless I can show him real results, so I need ideas on how to keep it. I figure with Chouji helping we can turn this place around, but no pressure.
Ino, congratulations. You'll be the cutest bride in white, and I'll make you an awesome cake.
Damn, I'm bored. |
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| take my hand, live while you can, don't you see your dreams lie right in the palm of your hand? |
[Feb. 18th, 2006|04:34 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  cynical | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Vanessa Carlton - Ordinary Day | ] |
I really don't know what to think about my actions last night. Ebisu-sama, you need to promise me that if I ever act that openly ridiculous in your bar again you will ban me for life. I am sure things would have been different if I had come in after a more ordinary day, but when we are talking about my life I'm starting to doubt those exist anymore.
The bakery is doing well as usual, I had to fire the kid I hired to take over the closing shift (so that I wouldn't have to schedule Naruto so much) because he grabbed my ass and tried to kiss me was a little to misogynistic and anti-authoritative women for my tastes. I've always thought Hinata was an easy name to remember, and if I know you well enough there are a few nicknames I'll accept, but if I am signing off on your paycheck you will not call me any of the following - Honey, Baby, Sexy, Doll, or most condescendingly, Shorty...unless you are Naruto. Then that's different.
Also yes, I look young, probably because I am only twenty-one. Still, that is no excuse for some sixteen year old to think he can get away with talking to me like I'm some chick in his high school. It was bad enough that I had to make a sign for the back room that clearly states that While dancing is accepted and encouraged (otherwise why have music?) dancing with the manager is only allowed by Naruto and certain priviledged individuals (usually customers), but making me wonder if I have to put a stipulation in the employee handbook that says implying your manager is an amateur pole dancer is grounds for immediate termination.
Anyway, thank you again Ebisu-sama, for listening and letting me blow off some steam. I left you a few treats near your back door. I hope they at least help to blunt some of the damage to my reputation my mouth may have caused last night.
The Pussycat Dolls - Beep
( Logging it - Look but don't touch (Ebisu and Hinata) a friendship in the making ) |
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| Ugh, that stupid yesterday |
[Feb. 15th, 2006|10:56 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | cheerful | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Jane Siberry - It Can't Rain All The Time | ] |
I worked all day yesterday. I bet that doesn't amaze anybody. I decided to try a new special Valentine's Day surprise, and went out of my way to make rose shaped brownies and heart shaped cookies. I also went so far as to get together baskets of certain treats just like in the old days, I just wasn't able to go delivering until today because I was wiped out.
Everybody got cookies, heart shaped ones with little frosting messages, except Gaara who got heart shaped lemon squares, and Temari who got a heart shaped loaf of cinnamon raisin bread. I left them where people could find them. Sasuke, you better find those oatmeal raisin cookies or I'll come and force-feed you, with love even.
Just goes to show that even a loveless loser like myself can still fake it with a smile. I miss the rain... |
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| Did you think that I would cry, on the phone? Do you know what it feels like, being alone? |
[Feb. 12th, 2006|08:26 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  anxious | ] |
| [ | music |
| | The All American Rejects - Swing, Swing | ] |
I've realized just how much I am letting the past affect me. I was never really able to get over how things ended with Shino-san all those years ago, and because of that the only relationship I have tried to have were pointless. I knew before that Itachi-san would only cut and run once he realized it would take more than one date and some martini's to get me in the sack, and otherwise nobody else has even tried.
What makes me so untouchable and unapproachable? I mean, so I own a business, and I am a Hyuuga. So what? I am not unpleasant to be around, I think I have a decent figure, and I know I have what it takes to be a good girlfriend, so why is nobody interested in me?
It's just upsetting, really. I'd like to have a family, and children, and I can't see that happening if I remain in this current state. Damnit...is there any brave guy out there willing to date me? Or am I destined to spend my life playing "Den Mother" and "Auntie"? |
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| So don’t pull on my hand boy, you ain’t my man, boy. I’m just tryn’a dance boy... |
[Jan. 31st, 2006|12:10 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  groggy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Black Eyed Peas - My Humps | ] |
Um wow...okay...so Ebisu-sama, um, I'm not saying I did or did not go to your bar last night and ended up getting totally plastered, nor am I saying I started dancing around with some of your customers and ended up un the bar dancing until I passed out, but I am asking if you remember seeing my jacket, and my cranberry buttondown...
I honestly don't know what came over me...I just wanted one little drink, and that turned into like three, and then that damn song came on and I screamed, didn't I? I got up and started shaking my butt, and then I danced my way over to the bar...and guys kept putting money in and letting me pick songs...
Oh yeah...that stupid business meeting with father and his accountant, giving them the check and getting the usual 'What a good girl you are, working so hard...' speech. I just didn't want to go home and be alone after that...Ebisu-sama, I um, I liked your decor.
I wish I knew how I got home...and who gave me their phone number? Oh Kami, why am I wearing a tie? I don't remember having a tie when I left the house... |
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| All of this time I can't believe I couldn't see, kept in the dark but you were there in front of me. |
[Jan. 23rd, 2006|07:23 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | cynical | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Evanescence - Bring Me to Life | ] |
Why am I posting again? Oh yeah, cause I have no life and nothing better to do. Ah well, maybe one day I'll revisit the more wild days of my youth (yes, I did have some) and check out a club or something. I got boring in my old age...Hell, Naruto pulling what he did gave me moore excitement than I've had since I got drunk and stepped on glass.
He made me team up with the Uchiha, he better realize how far gone I must have thought he was to do that...decking the Uchiha was pretty fun too, even if it didn't have the desired effect. Those Uchiha boys have tough jaws...
Ugh, I need more of a life...any ideas? |
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| The most non-eventful eventful week ever |
[Jan. 13th, 2006|02:28 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  crushed | ] |
I feel as if my brain is about to come out of my ears. I spend every waking moment when not doing stuff at the bakery camped out in front of Naruto's. I've taken to going and opening the bakery, grabbing the books and what I need, and coming back here as soon as somebody else comes in. My cell phone helps me to solve any problem that comes up, and I know I'd probably kill myself if he came out and I wasn't here to see him.
I've started slipping little notes under the door, I don't even care if he reads them. I talk to him like he can hear me through the door. His neighbors think I'm some eff-d in the head stalker chick, especially with the way I stare as the door. The notes are the best though. He has to have like twenty by now. I've threatened to fire him, to double his pay, written stupid stories about embarrassing childhood things, suggestive and straight up crude offers...mostly about the past though. I've been playing confessions.
If he doesn't come out this weekend, I'm kicking the door down. |
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| Damnit... |
[Jan. 5th, 2006|08:37 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | worried | ] |
I should have said something. I should have said a lot. To both of you.
I didn't trust Naruto not to run out and do something hasty, and I didn't trust Sasuke not to leave him crumpled and crying again.
I hated being in the position I was in.
Forget it, no time to complain or worry. I have a door to break down and somebody to punch. |
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| Realizations can be frightening.... |
[Dec. 31st, 2005|01:08 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  contemplative | ] |
Naruto, I apologize to you and bow down to your superior wisdom. I very nearly allowed myself to do something I would probably regret for the rest of my days if not for you. Thank you for standing by me, and helping me to realize what a fool I was being. You are my best friend and support system, and I love you...always have...
I was so ridiculous in not seeing everything I had, that I allowed myself to be blinded by the prospect of having something more. I felt as if I needed love, perhaps a family, and something more emotional to show for my life so far. I should have realized I have always had love and a family, that I was the one holding back emotionally...
One day, I'm sure everything will work out. I do hope when it does I still welcome the prospect. |
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| Birthday junk... |
[Dec. 27th, 2005|12:08 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | contemplative | ] |
It is my birthday today. I will be twenty-one at exactly 1:26am. Here is hoping this year is more eventful than last year. Maybe I'll even find some peace with the decisions I have made so far in life. I love having my own business so young, but I kind of wish I had more... |
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| I hate the holidays |
[Dec. 26th, 2005|04:02 pm] |
Other than visiting my father, I usually end up alone with nothing much to do. I mean everybody else has people to visit and places to go, but I don't really have anybody I need to visit or anything. I usually have some wine and go to bed early...Have to be up to open the shop the next day. I give everyone the day off except me, for family time. I don't need it, as I have no real family to speak of.
I have my friends, but most of them have stuff to do, and I am not simply inviting myself along... |
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| Happy holidays! |
[Dec. 24th, 2005|01:05 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | ecstatic | ] |
I made everyones presents. Except Kisame's. He gets the same thing he got when I was a teenager, but in a new and exciting color. Yes, that's right, a purple nothing. Ahahahahah!
Anyway, pies and cookies are waiting at the bakery for those local, and have been shipped to those who got out of Konoha. Enjoy!
Naruto, you get a paid vacation day for Christmas, use it well. |
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| I'm so tired of being here, suppressed by all of my childish fears |
[Dec. 21st, 2005|08:32 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | depressed | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Evanescence - My Immortal | ] |
( And if you have to leave, I wish that you would just leave. Because your presence still lingers here, and it won't leave me alone )
I feel like the textbook definition of pathetic, sitting here alone in my bakery with most of the lights off, listening to music before we open. Still, somebody has to make sure the ovens are clean, the tables are wiped down, the coffee is brewing, and those first few patrons have muffins and breads to snack on...Somebody had to make the sacrifices to keep this place humming, and as this is my place I will be the one to give up sleep and a family life...
So, I heard this song on the radio, and it made me think of him. I'm torn between curling up in a little ball and crying myself senseless, or simply pretending nothing is going through my head except this insanely good recipe for cinnamon raisin swirl bread. Figured I'd quote it and see if anyone can figure out who has captured my normally logical brain.
"I wanted you to know I love the way you laugh
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain away
I keep your photograph and I know it serves me well
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain
'Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone away" |
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